Monthly Archives: February 2019

Love, My Life (人生)

A Part Of Me Missing…

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No matter how much I may deny it, but I miss her. I just don’t know how to tell her or tell her how much she means to me. Note that I am using “present” tense or not “past” tense. When I receive a msg from you, it really enlights my spirit, lifts me up when I’m not in a good position in my life. I never had you, not even having you now, nor will I ever have you ever. It’s taken a long long time to allow my heart to accept this, but I’ll live with it. She was my burning flame from within, but now I know with the rest of this journey, I gotta do this on my own.

I hope one day I can find someone who I can genuinely love, and grow together. But until then, it’s all about me and improving myself to become a better person. One day…I hope I meet the right person

My Life (人生)

Need that mentality back!

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Two years ago I could sit five different exams, yet the one upcoming next month I am losing my touch and feel I’m slipping her. I need that mentality back asap! To be honest I should have got straight onto it, and now I understand why people around kept telling me that. It’s hard to understand at first, but until you whine up into the position I’m in now, I would have taken their advice more seriously. Regret it, but that’s how life goes.

One month of hardcore studying and commitment. Gonna be tough but nobody said it would be easy, gotta get cracking with those early starts and late nights. More preparation is needed and I need to stress the importance of not fucking around! They don’t give a shit about me…let that shit go. No more shitty YouTube trending videos and looking at Audi A3s.

I hope I can pass this test I pray…