Looking forward

It’s a beautiful afternoon, the sun is out and is shining brightly, what more can you ask for? 🙂

I attended a Buddhist meeting yesterday morning to boost my faith and morals in life. Although there are times I question myself about this practice I can always see the benefits that arises in life. Patience is the key here.

The weekend for me usually goes two way. Either working on something productively or just “chilling” haha. Yesterday I managed to start on one of my goals and that was to make a music video on YouTube. The first process is the design which can be scary and challenging but it’s always that step which will give that boost and everything else should follow up. I spent over 3 hours at designing the main cover. Seriously, I haven’t lost my touch at designing wahoo!! 🙂 It’s about composition, persona, colour, and style etc. For those who aren’t designers out there, this is a quick insight of the involvement being a designer aha. Actually this lasted from the evening till late at night, but it was definitely worth it. If I didn’t start on it, then would I actually start, for me it’s that first part of the process which is important!

Last night I couldn’t sleep. It was because of the humid weather and even though I had the windows open I was rolling around on my bed. And eventually it pass midnight and I still couldn’t sleep! So I had to wake up and get my fan and phew I slept afterwards. But at the same time I was thinking and thinking…again!

A part of me was looking forward towards the future. It’s weird, when I think about the future I think about being together with her. It’s quite an awkward feeling. It’s like I’m planning this future with her. I don’t mind sharing this, but a part of me hopes she reads this haha!

1. The first step hehe, sorry I find this quite amusing when I’m writing this. Right we are sort of happy with where we are now. You’re somewhere at the other side of the world and will be returning soon. I’m stuck in the usual place and will be studying for my final year at university. Maybe a spark will ignite at some point, but I really hope so/
2. If all goes well I’ll graduate and I assume you’ll be in a similar situation, well actually better. At this point I probably decide to sell my brother’s car and buy a newer up to date VW Polo in a mid range model, so I won’t fuss too much at pimping it up. It’s got good reviews and for me it’s a reasonably practical car. I don’t want any British cars such as Vaxuhall or Ford because I hate those. If she wants one of them, I’m leaving her haha!
3. I know that one day she’ll love to move abroad and that’s the only drawback once we get to that point. Unless miraculously there was a job offer in Asia, then baby we’re moving over together haha! It won’t be an easy ride and we know that but I’ll promise it’ll work out.
4. If Step 3 doesn’t work, then the alternative is staying in the UK and we’ll work our way up in my our career. I pray that she can find a good job if we were to stay here. I might study ACCA and that’s a long-term financial benefit and I don’t know if she can wait that long, which I am afraid of.
5. If we are still together by the age of 25+ then we’ll have to access the situation more clearly. We would have saved a reasonable amount of money and would possibly decide to take out a mortgage to buy a nice house, and she can decide wherever she likes. Near the coast or somewhere near the city, it’s all yours 😀
6. If Step 5 isn’t reasonable at buying a house here, then we can move abroad 🙂 and I know she would definitely prefer this step haha. But decide as soon as possible.
7. To be honest I would prefer to build a strong foundation and we have to choose carefully. If we want to move abroad we’ll have to decide before the age of 25 and not too late. I would like to settle down properly don’t you agree? I want to tie the knot, let’s get married 😉 The kids will come later on in life and I hope before the age of 30.
8. Lastly wherever we are in this world, I hope we are happily together with a family of our own. I can’t predict the future anymore but all I know is I love you.

Enough crazy loving thoughts. I know at this point it may seem a bit bleak for me but I’m looking forward to this because it only gets better in time, I have a good feeling about it. Regardless of reaching Step 1 or not I think looking forward and achieving the best I can in the next year or so is the way forward.

380 days left

Oooooh the pressure is on!! It’s been almost two weeks after I left my work placement and what have I been doing? Well I attended Buddhist meetings, went to the gym 4 days in a row, and going to Whitby to experience the seaside 🙂 Since last time it was 465 days left, but within those days all I can say is madness haha! Most of it was working and working and stressing to get things done, but I’ve passed that and I’m here…once again.

I have less than 6 weeks to complete the things I wanted to do and I’ve been saying it countless times, but I’m not doing it. Yes it’s stupid but frustrating at the same times because surely it’s something that I want but I’m not working towards it!!?
I have written eight points down to try accomplish and these are:

1. Write my report (placement)
2. Write blogs
3. Write remaining two songs
4. Record all songs
5. Improve cantonese/mandarin
6. Consistent gym ✓
7. Update CV/Linkedin ✓
8. Create YouTube Video

The first week of my “freedom” was going gym consistently and I was able to achieve this. I feel my physical state has improved and I will need to maintain this as long as I can before I lose it when I’m back at university. My next would be writing my placement report and that will take at least two days to write something good. I’ve finished all my projects except for two songs and I MUST finish these. Lastly there is this cantonese medley music video I need to make, and the rest is self explanatory. So I need to achieve this in six weeks?
To be honest if I seriously put my mind into it I can complete all of the above. But realistically I doubt it. Most of the time I feel lazy and not wanting to do the things above, but it’s that kick-ass motivation I need. It’s not love related but I need to  strive for prosperity. I know that a year from today, the situation will be completely different and I should take this opportunity to really focus my mind and get the things I want to do complete. I know my time would have ran out by then, so no more excuses.

I wonder what my next countdown post will involve! I need to get my mind focused or else what I started will have been a mere waste of time! Until then take care all!

So far so good!

Hey all,

Jeez I haven’t been updating my blog recently 😦 Looking back a lot has happened and I’ve been doing my best to savour those best moments. I’ve finished my work placement last Friday (07/08/15) and it was also a special day on that date too 🙂 It was quite a rushed farewell tbh. There were bits I wasn’t able to complete but at the end of the day I could only do my best. Can’t believe a year has passed already and what have I achieved? All I can is a lot yeahh!!! 😀

So what am I doing now for these next few weeks? Good question…that’s a good question. There’s quite a lot of things I would like to achieve but that completely depends on my motive. I hope I can do everything before I return back to university for my final year, but less words more action right?

Anyways I will resume my journey in my next post. Until then, see ya!!!