Welcoming 2018

Although this particular year is the year of the rooster, I kept telling myself at the beginning that it would be my year, and everything will turn out great! However, I had to learn things the hard way and it’s been more of a learning curve and for me I’ve learnt a great deal about life, and understanding myself better as an individual.

This year, I feel one one half was dragging like hell, and the other half…well it’s just went too fast! Looking back when I wrote “Welcoming 2017” it seems I’ve haven’t “achieved” as much compared to the previous year, and funny thing is I can’t think about this 😦 I’m sure there are some achievements, but maybe just personal ones such as physically growth working out in the gym, and finding a new job.

Reflecting the year 2017, it’s more of a learning curve and a truth of the harsh reality. It’s a cruel world out there, and yes there are people besides you who can help you, but for me, I just gotta tackle throught this. One aspect I forgot to mention was this particular year I’ve linked up with more old friends, and it’s been good catching up!

I’m still single and haven’t found love, but a part of me thinks I’ve found somebody else, but with the conflicted heart whether to battle on and wait for her…

It’s kinda funny this time last time, I wrote “2017 is when my life will seriously “take off” and I’m expecting many changes“. It hasn’t exactly taken off and not many changes has occured, but I can say it’s been good. There’s been low points, but I rather keep the good memories and move on.

So what shall I expect in 2018? Another new job possibly? Finally starting my study support so I can get the ball rolling and work towards to become a chartered accountant. Complete my 5th and final mixtape, which I can’t wait 🙂 Love can still wait full stop.

Farewell 2017 and what a fricking journey *sigh
Happy new year x

Killing Me Softly With His Song

Before you quit, Remember why you started.

The recurring question!?

Since I turned 24 last month, the same recurring question kept being asked in the last month, more than the last year for serious!! The question is this:

“Ohh you’re 24 now, and it’s time you find a girlfriend blah blah blah”

My relatives have been pestering me for a bit, and a part of me is happy that they’re paying attention to what’s been going in my life, but at the same time I don’t want to rush things at all and the last thing I want is to mess things up with the girl I’m with, cause I know what my drawbacks are and I can scare her off haha. Like I said before, my time is not ripe yet, and I’m sure things will work out at the end but if I’m getting pestered in the corner of my mind…well I’ll bring some random chick to the  family, and see what their reactions are haha! Jokes aside, I will keep my mind focus for the upcoming year 2018, and keep working hard.

Scorpio Horoscope 2018

The year 2018 would bring about a great sense of serenity and subtleness for Scorpio natives. There would be much fun, laughter and happiness in life like never this period. You would have much inner peace, a sense of freedom prevails around you. Saturn would help you to lead a life of low-profile now. It would also bring about radical changes in your life, from which there would be no returning back. Unexpected events are forecast for Scorpio guys for the year ahead. Face it in style..

Career horoscope 2018 For Scorpio

Scorpio people would be able to venture far ahead in their professional life this year. This would be a good time to put your ideas to paper, and start new ventures that seem off-hook. Dare to dream big and do not be deceived by those around. Reveal your true inner self and committed nature to your peers and authorities. In this way, you would be able to connect with them in a more sensible way. Do not complain, instead use the limited resources to climb up the corporate ladder. Do not fall prey for false friends and financial frauds. You would have an enormous amount of time and resources to prove your mettle in the career front this year. Around the second half of the year, there would be a question regarding your future course of action in the professional arena. Be consistent with your performance that the year-end would bless you with promotions and pay-hikes.

Love and Marriage horoscope 2018 For Scorpio

There would be stark contrasts in the love life of Scorpio natives during year 2018. Stay away from impulsive acts as this might move you far away from your partner. Be elastic and try to accommodate his or her feelings. This year there would be much warmth in your love life. The single ones would have a positive development to meet and settle down with ideal partners for life. Solitude might kill some of you secretive Scorpios this year. Hence it is best to hang out with a compatible partner for the period. A good time to pass your emotions and feelings onto your partner or spouse. You would feel retaliated in a positive sense. You would be taken to a new arena where you get to see your partner in a new perspective this period, if you are honest enough. Your partner would have a better you for companionship. A good time to strengthen the bonds with partner, resulting in more intimate relationships and conjugal bliss for the committed ones.

Finance horoscope 2018 For Scorpio

The year 2018 would be a time when Scorpio natives are asked to take stock of their financial backing and security in life. During the start of the year, take some financial resolutions and stick to them all through the period, this would help you to stem the tide of financial degradation. Keep your purses tight and stay away from impulsive spending for the year. There would not be much troubles , however you are encouraged to save and avoid over-spending for family and friends. The middle of the year might call in for a huge financial spending, be prepared for the same. Keep your financial priorities straight and adhere to the policies you made earlier. A healthy financial period is forecast for most Scorpions if they keep their money under strict enviroment. The first half of the year would be a good time to make investments.

Fever/Cold/Flu – Recovery

• Dried crocodile meat herbs soup
• Lemsip Max Cold + Flu Lemon Hot Drink (Paracetamol 1000mg)
• Lemsip Max All in One Cold + Flu STRONGEST (Guaifenesin 200mg)
• Boots Vitamin C Tablets 1000mg
• Covonia Cough (Any Applicable)
• Beechams Max Strength Capsules
• Boots Ibuprofen Caplets 400mg (Best for headaches)
• Stay hydrated as much as possible
• Avoid gym, and focus on resting like literally!
• Wear more layers to stay warm when necessary
• Stay cool. Remove extra layers of clothing, if don’t have the chills
• Must eat regardless if you don’t have the appetite, to build energy
• Try avoid going out, heavy to breathe and chest pains in cold weather

As Time Goes By [End of 2017]

Since October my progress has been slow, but there’s been movements and ideas have been flying from all different directions. To be honest, Novemeber hasn’t been creative at all, with personal issues and relatives coming over and enjoying my birthday month. Work had been tough that particular month, but at the end of all of this it is down to my excuses and time has passed now…so move on.

December 2017:

Had more ideas flowing into my mind to add additional songs, but the struggle has been good. Although it goes back to the quality over quantity mind frame, I had to keep telling myself what the ideal audience would be, and remind myself the past “mistakes” I had made with my projects. Initially, it was meant to be only 5-6 songs for this project, but I’ve taken it up to 10 songs, and a few weeks ago I was conflicted to add more songs to a total of 14.
Through careful consideration, I’ve kept 10 songs and added different elements to this, and made sure each song serve its purpose. It’s always a funny feeling when you know something isn’t “perfect” and there’s that tingly feeling that annoys you in the corner of your mind, and that was feeling. I’ve got four songs left to write, and it shouldn’t be too long for these to be complete, but obviously there will be challenges in my daily life that will interfere with this. To grace you all with positivity and love, you’ll find below the “final” cover design. I’ve had the idea for the release date of May 2018 to mark the start of the idea which surfaced in May 2016…but let’s see how it goes, can’t rush this!

This journey…

0 days Left – Negative Thoughts

I don’t really know why I’m still hoping. 15 months later since I wrote “0 Days Left – My Love To You” my thoughts have changed…not my feelings. I still must apologise for not getting to where I need to be, and for me it’s frustrating and it seems like a battle I won’t win.

How do you tell a girl you love her, I mean really love her? She’s the only reason I’m still fighting on, and no matter how hard it gets, I won’t give up. Although our circumstances have changed, I still feel it doesn’t make a difference. She’s at the other side of the world, and enjoying her new life. I’m really happy for her, but the sad feeling swells deep inside knowing she’s outgrown me…I feel I’ll just let her down. When you really care about someone, their happiness matters more than yours.

There are days I question myself what my true purpose in life is, but really I’m trying to secure a concrete future…for you and a family of our one day. To be honest, when I think about the future, all I have is you in my mind and nobody else. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I love dreaming, because in my dreams, you’re actually mine.

At some point, I have to realise that she doesn’t care that much, and for me I could be missing out on someone who actually does. Whenever I want to move on, she always linger on my mind, and it halts my move. There is somebody else who I want, but do I go? It’s hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen. But it’s even harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want.

The worse battle is between what you know and how you feel. Regardless of this, I won’t be in any position to call you mine. Why would she possibly go for someone like me, I mean in the position I’m in at this very moment, she can meet somebody else at the other side of the world, and take it from there. Okay, I might be thinking negative, but the truth hurts. Whenever I see her smile, she melts my heart away like no other. The conflict within is killing me. What do I do? Three years ago, when I told her how I felt about her, it didn’t go the way I’d imagined it, and no matter how messed up you think you were, how bad your faults and flaws were, to me she was always amazing. Action speaks louder than words, but the worse part I’ve missed your physical presence for way too long, that if our paths were to cross and I stumble into, I’ll be speechless.

Like I said before my time is not ripe, but I assure you I will get there. There are days where I question myself because I feel like you’re waiting for me but at the same time I’m just thinking nonsense. For me that’s hope but that also destroys me inside. I hope one day when she reads this, she knows how I truly feel about her and, what my plans are for us in the future are. Eventually we’ll end up where we need to be, with who we’re meant to be with, and doing what we should be doing. Patience is key.

Sometimes the person you want most is the person you’re best without…

Happy