Taiwan 台湾

Introduction:

What a trip! 🙂 I didn’t sleep at all on the plane and it’s good that mama doesn’t know haha. A baby on board at the front and one at the rear so please tell me can you sleep? At least there were plenty of entertainment to watch phew, and this lasted my whole journey. The closer I got to my destination the more I felt happy and excited.

To be surprised I never felt jet-lagged at all! Maybe the excitement caught up to me that I’ve finally reunited with my brother! When I first saw him I hugged him really tightly and that feeling I shall never forget. To me he’s the greatest brother ever, even though he is a pain in the ass at times ha. Looking around my environment the culture and the people were different but that was something I eventually developed during my time in Taiwan but sadly I had to leave.

First week:

Well lets get started. The first day in Taipei, well the same day I landed I was full of energy and I was hugging my brother and talking so much. That just shows how much I’ve missed my brother and the loneliness I’ve been in since he left. But wait. Over 12 hours flight and not tired, he must be crazy?!! Yep that’s true, I still remember clearly when the local time here was 14:30 I was about to eat, and suddenly I started to yawn. Opps now that’s weird because I didn’t yawn at all on the plane, the time difference must have started to catch up with me. After being introduced to my first meal in Taipei, we returned home for a quick nap and my bro knew I needed that even though at first I refused lol. At night we went over to a friend’s house for a meal with their family and traditional Taiwanese food I must say is different but nice. The last part of the night was me and my brother getting pissed and waiting for the countdown for CNY in Taiwan. We didn’t go to sleep till 1ish and for the first day to arrive in Taipei I am utterly crazy haha, it must have been the excitement!! 😀

The next day we woke up reasonably early around 9ish, and for me I woke up staring at a different ceiling. Throughout my time in Taiwan, I knew my brother didn’t sleep much and I must thank you him for taking me almost everywhere in Taiwan! Today we went to explore at Taipei 101, which this is a popular tourist attraction, and it was way out of my league haha! It had around eight floors and the higher I went the more I realised the more expensive and high class the stores were, and this made me chuckle. Originally I planned to go to the 101 Observatory to see the view but I forgot to take in account the time and the queue which was fricking long! It was around 4:00pm and I thought meh it’s just buildings and going on Google searching the images makes no big difference..but maybe next time 🙂 That night we went to a particularly expensive restaurant and ate steak which equating to GBPs it was over £40 haha. But it was very succulent and tasty and it was worth it! Me and my brother knew this place was too romantic for two guys sitting opposite of each other and a bottle of red wine on the table haha!

On the third day I couldn’t sleep and woke up around 6am and no matter how hard I tried to force myself to sleep I just couldn’t. I decided to walk out to the balcony to check out the view where I stayed, and it was quite a memorable one. I wanted to make sure I wasn’t dreaming and I was actually in Taiwan and not in the UK haha.

Out of the blue I started to miss her. It was a Sunday night. Yes I miss you. I wanted to sleep but it was kinda too warm and you popped in my mind, and that night felt rather long. Just thinking about you sucks you know that. I was hugging my pillow like it was you haha and it’s silly but soon I fell asleep and approached the next day. This part is going to sound weird okay. Through my whole trip in Taipei my brother as always tried to draw my attention to the Taiwanese chicks, but I seem to not focus my attention at times. But do you know why? You’re stuck in my mind. Even though you’re not mine or anything but it’s like I feel faithful and I don’t want to lose you. Yes Taiwanese girls are pretty but you’re in my heart which makes me stay loyal for you. I’ve heard they admire BBCs like myself, and I know I can be in a relationship with one but I choose NOT to. You are the only girl who drives me forward and I hope I am the same for you.

Remaining few days:

The remaining few days I had to go out exploring on my own because my brother had to work and that left me with no choice. Stay in a stuffy room and go out exploring…I know which one you would choose. I travelled around Taipei for sight-seeing and seeing the beauty of nature here too. When I went back home to tell my family and friends they were amazed that I would actually go hiking and independently go out exploring. I am grown up now, no need to worry about me, I’m a fighter! 😀 The last few days I took more time to appreciate that moment at being here there in Taiwan. I kept looking around me and especially staring at my brother which he found weird haha but I told him the reason afterwards haha. It has been a great experience coming to Taiwan 🙂 The last moment at passing through the customs in the airport I didn’t hug my brother and he knew it would be too emotional.

In Taipei we’ve been too many places but I will name a few: Parks, Museums, Taipei Zoo, Chiang Kai-Shek Memorial Hall, Shopping malls, Night markets, Plenty of places to eat, Beitou Thermal Valley, Presidential Office Building, National Palace Museum, and MANY MORE 😀

GOODBYE TAIWAN, TILL WE MEET AGAIN! ❤

The Future?

If you ever ask where will I be in the future, I hope I reply back saying I wanna spend the rest of my life with you. It had been over a month since I last talked to you, and last night speaking to you again made me smile stupidly. If this is the last time talking to you, then it was worth it. You’re a really wonderful girl but it’s a shame that I’ve lost the touch for you. This digital world has consumed me and I don’t even know when I can meet you again, let alone the near future. If I had one more chance to say something to her…I wouldn’t say the three words at all to you…but I would rather say thank you. I’m grateful that I had the chance to meet someone beautiful and someone who I can turn to when I have nobody else to talk to. I hope you will find the right person. However there is one thing that will never change and that’s my feelings towards you.

What I’m scared about is after graduating. Yes ever since I went to sixth form (year 12) I had all this planned out up until the end of university, but after? That’s what scares me. Who will I be with? Where will I be working? What’s my career path, has it changed? Will I be working abroad? There’s many questions floating in my mind, but if I never get the chance to see this then at least I created my foundation and lived life, but not to its full potential as some would say.

At least I was on the right path at making my music and could have possibly dedicated a song to her. Well written but never spoken. My journey with my music has been a memorable one. There’s not much to say about it, but I can’t wait until I finish my final project which will consist of 23 songs. I dread for that day to arrive.

To be honest I have slowly started to realise what it’s like to be a parent, but not yet understanding its full compassion. I just can’t wait to get to a point in life where I have my own family, my wife and kids, happy, financially stable…oh gawd just one day. Being a son and looking at my parents…I wonder how I will be as parent, but only time will tell.

Life: it goes on…

Love Yourz

I wrote these lyrics on my coach journey to London for my Buddhist SGI meeting and also going to work on the train. I never actually thought I could write these words down. I wrote down my feelings on my blog a few months back and it was all  confusing and muddled up, but I was able to convert that into a song. Yes this song is for you. Even if you never read this, I have done my final part at dedicating a song to you, not romantic at all but a journey instead.

I am starting SLOWLY on my next project which I can say now is entitled “Waiting For You“. This is my third project and it’s another angle I’m taking it from. First was an overall general feel of my music, my second was a Grime comeback, and now it’s a love project. I must admit writing love lyrics back in those days were easy but getting back into that vibe and writing especially about someone is…well easy in a way because of the thoughts but challenging to write something real is another story. My idea is consisting of 8 songs again like my previous, and I hope this project will be successful and I hope to be there to see it through. I think there will be maybe 3 songs in total which will be non-fiction, my story…and the rest fiction to be as real as it can.

Thank you and Goodbye! 🙂

A Simple Life

A Simple Life. It is a life that we would all like to have. Well some people will agree, who would want to over-complicate when in life all we ask is for is simplicity. One thing for certain is the older we become, the more problems and struggle we face in life. Do you agree? But when you reach a certain point in our life state you would like to avoid all the “mayhem” and ask for a simple life. I’m not saying it’s something to avoid but something we should enjoy in this life time.

I am the type of person who desires a simple life. Then you must be very boring? Yes you can say that but until you reach to a life state where you start to appreciate life itself…it is beautiful. We live in a world where it’s ever progressing and developing into a digital environment, and there’s nothing we can do in life…as they say…in three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned in life: it goes on. That is the beauty of life. Therefore what I’m trying to express today is the root of a simple life. Simplicity is the key to brilliance.

You must think for a young aged person like me…isn’t there much more you can explore in this life rather than already enjoying this “simple life” that you live in? I totally agree. I’m young and there’s so much to explore in this world. I just can’t wait to meet my other half and go out exploring. There’s still many phases in life that I need to face. Facing reality and try finding my other half, and having a stable financial background with a family of my own one day. But sometimes wherever I am…maybe on a train journey or lying on a orange corn field I love to stare at the nature of this world, especially the sky when the sun is setting. Here’s a reference for describing a sunset:

“The sun is setting, its warm, its inviting. it fills you up with awe, hope and dreams. the warmth fills your heart. it makes you feel like you could grab the sun’s rays like a bouquet of flowers and hold them tight. it makes you aware of the day gone past and prepares you for the night to come”.

Referring to this movie “A Simple Life 桃姐” starring Andy Lau [劉德華] I must give it 10/10. It really touches my heart. I’ve only watched it twice and I bet every time I watch it, it will touch my heart no matter what. I even went online to purchase the DVD because it is that good. I’m not going to spoil the film, but after you watch it you will start to respect and appreciate life, and your love ones much more.

In conclusion I always try my best to not over-complicate my life. There will be times when I’m stressing over little things like love, my future and even work, but nothing tops it off with the feeling of living a simple life. I’ve heard a few times from the older generation about not over-complicating life and try making it simple and it’s true. Since the start of the new year [2015] I’ve been slowly living life, I mean in the context of appreciating life and observing the world as it turns. There are people out there who will not appreciate my lifestyle of simplicity because I’m enjoying it way too young for my age, and should go out more often. But I’m here, perfectly healthy in a loving happy environment, what more can you ask for in life? I don’t expect people to respect me for who I am, I just want to put out the message about a simple life we can all live. This world we live in is no longer the world we know anymore.

Maybe one day you will understand.

February: My Plan

Well it’s 1st February 2015. A month for celebrating Chinese New Year, and much more!! 🙂
I feel this month is gonna be busy. Work, trip, music…so basically life itself. I still haven’t made hardcopies of my music mixtape and haven’t progressed much on my next album. But as long as I’m moving, that’s what counts! It’s like with the girl I’m still thinking about, I haven’t spoke to her for a month and I deeply feel bad but I know she’s progressing in life and doing what she needs to do in life. I just hope our paths will cross soon.
Anyways there’s a lot to prepare for….sorry I just can’t write anymore. Something just clicked in my mind that action needs to be taken rather than writing my problems here. I’ll clear up the confusion in my next blog. Take care everyone.