Monthly Archives: November 2016
Virtual Reality
Thinking about this, one of my aims for the year 2017 is to try live away from this “virtual reality” and live real! Once you log yourself into social media sites or games, you become another character, which you’re famous or hold a great record at soemthing.
BUT in reality, you are you. Yes you may have a talent at doing things, but in reality it’s work, studies, and the love we share around us.
Like for example, going on Instagram and you view other users and photos, it’s kinda demotivating in a sense because they may have flashy cars, big muscles, or shit loads of money etc. Okay great…they have an amazing life. But what’s really important is creating a destiny for yourself. I know it’ll extremely difficult to get to that stage on what’s exposed on Instagram, but I guess it can be seen as a “vision” for some to attempt to achieve…
I understand when you enter this virtual reality, the world suddenly becomes much bigger, and it eases off loneliness we may suffer in reality. Once you turn away from your phone, computer, and other electronic gadgets, then it’s back to reality, you won’t a status of being famous online…well depends on that extent unless you’re a musician or something.
I need to create my own destiny and something to be proud of, not always relating to others online. I’m 23 years of age, and life right now isn’t on the right track which I thought of and it’s frustrating at times. I guess I gotta keep working hard, and wait for the right opportunity to meet the right person. I’m sad that I still haven’t met the one yet, and every day seems gloomy.
23 Reasons Why 23 Is Absolutely The Worst Year Of Your Life
What is it about age 23 that makes everyone agree — both young and old — that it’s the worst year of your life?
It’s an age that is rough all around the edges. You’re on the edge of your seat as everything, including yourself, rapidly changes. And sometimes it just feels like you’re not a part of it all.
Twenty-three was by far the worst year of my life and the majority of my friends’ and family members’ lives. There are too many transitions.
You’re caught in too many limbos between being an adult and still feeling like a college kid. It’s upsetting, brightening, hardening and hectic all at once.
My friends were going through it too, and yet I still felt isolated in my experience. I thought I just needed to get away, but what I really needed was to face myself.
Without trying to sound dramatic (Who am I kidding? Yes I am.) your entire being feels compromised. Science shows that your brain is on the tail-end of its mental peak, taken differently, it’s at the beginning of mental decline. Your prefrontal cortex, the part that controls emotional responses, is at its height of formation — making us crazy with feelings.
The rest of your brain, however, is retaining the information it thinks it’ll use in the future and clearing out the rest. No wonder 23 feels like one big mental mindf*ck. I was delusional from the start. I thought that my fancy degree and feigned confidence would be enough.
I thought I had everything going for me and my energy force was unstoppable. This came to a spiraling halt. Instead I learned that sometimes in life you have to take a step backward to move forward.
That after moving five times in two years, no place feels like home. And that, when you finally make it out to the other side, you’ll be the real thing, which is really happy.
Here are 23 reasons why 23 is the worst year of your life:
- You’re too old to be making the same mistakes you made your first year out of college, but not old enough yet to act like an adult.
- Your best friends change
- You’re at the bottom of the totem pole again
- You think you’re in a serious relationship, but you still have Tinder downloaded
- You’re young enough to miss home, but too old to admit it
- You falsely believe you’ve entered the real world, but it hasn’t fully hit you yet
- All you hear about are kids your age changing the world and you’re still interning
- Relationships are complicated
- You know what your dream apartment looks like, but you’re way too young to afford it
- You’re transitioning between entry-level job and career
- You’re smart enough to make good decisions, but dumb enough to keep making bad ones
- You’re sexually frustrated
- You’re still unsure of who you are
- Nobody likes you when you’re 23
- Your brain is nearly done changing
- You’re caught in limbo
- You still don’t know what you’re doing
- You’re in new territory
- You can’t afford your lifestyle
- You’re still dressing like a confused tween on the red carpet
- Your old habits are still there
- You’ve got growing pains
- You can’t relate to anything except articles like these
23 deeply unbearable struggles of being 23
Turning 23 is truly one of the great tragedies every person must face.
It is soul-destroying. It is so, so hard to go on.
Because now you are old. So old.
Everything is terrible. Your metabolism is slowing down. You just found your first grey hair and power-sobbed underneath a blanket for three hours and twenty minutes.
And yet, everyone around you keeps saying how young you are.
You receive no sympathy for your pain. Nobody understands you. Apart from us. We know your struggles.
1. You are no longer the youngest person in your office
This is a tragedy, as you’re no longer the resident young person everyone turns to when a new bit of slang pops up on the internet.
You now feel decrepit, useless, and unappreciated.
No one is impressed with all your accomplishments because now there’s a 21-year-old doing the same thing as you, but with more enthusiasm and wide-eyed hope. You hate them.
2. And yet, everyone reacts with shock and disappointment when you don’t know about some random crap from twenty years ago
Oh, yes, silly me. How could I POSSIBLY not know about Opal Fruits or The Littlest Hobo. It’s not like I was THREE.
Just leave me alone to my suffering, you cruel, cruel monsters.
3. But you also have no clue what the youths of today are on about
You have the loosest grasp of ‘on fleek’, but have taken to bitterly shaking your head when you see teens tweeting that their deep-fried matcha ramen was LIT AF, or politely asking a member of One Direction to ‘LET ME SMELL YOU, DADDY’.
Nothing makes sense anymore.
MORE: 23 reasons uni friends are way better than grown-up world friends
4. Your fun, carefree days of uni are long behind you
But still close enough that you miss them every damn day.
5. And you’re no longer ‘just out of uni’, so people don’t go easy on you anymore
A year ago, not having a job or a place to live was entirely acceptable. NOT ANYMORE, B*TCH.
6. You can no longer sing Taylor Swift’s 22
Well, you can. But everyone will point at you and quietly whisper: ‘they’re not really feeling 22. They are old and irrelevant now’.
7. And the only song written for our people has the lyrics ‘nobody likes you when you’re 23’
F*** you, blink-182. F*** you.
8. You’ve likely just passed that self-imposed one year mark for living in your parents’ house
Meaning you have to pay rent to live with a bunch of other people who have no idea what they’re doing. And one gruff 30-year-old who hates everything about you.
You long for the days when it was still socially acceptable to get your mum to bring you a carefully made sandwich. Life is so tough.
9. Speaking of sandwiches, your metabolism is no longer in its gleeful teenage state
And you’re starting to realise you can’t just eat whatever the f*** you want and not put on any weight anymore.
You have to exercise. Ugh.
10. You only have two years to complete all that stuff you were meant to have done by 25
Oh, how’s that book coming? And that wedding?
11. It’s a really sh*t time for relationships, let’s be honest
You’ve likely just broken up with your uni significant other, and are now facing the torturous world of dating as an adult. Meaning swiping left on people for hours before agreeing to meet someone and get embarrassingly hammered.
12. But you’re expected to be settling down
Your elderly relatives have started asking you when you plan to get married. And it’s not in a jokey way.
Get off my case, Grandma. Let me accept my eternal loneliness.
22 things you’ll go through when you’re newly single
13. All your coupled up friends are moving into the long haul
Your Facebook feed is slowly being overtaken by engagement announcements. The reaction to ‘I’m pregnant’ is no longer supposed to be: ‘oh my god, are you okay? Want me to call the clinic?’
Everything is loss. Everything is devastation.
14. No one takes you seriously as an adult
‘Oh, you’re only 23. Hahaha. You don’t know things.’
15. You now have to deal with all the responsibilities of adulthood
Like making your own doctors appointments, getting a job, and having to pay for a place to live. We were not prepared for this.
16. But you can’t enjoy any of the perks
Oh, I can go on holidays now. Except I don’t have any money.
YAY, pets. NOPE, the live-in landlord won’t allow it.
ALL JOYFUL THINGS. No.
17. You receive no sympathy from your work colleagues when you complain about how old you are
What, just because they’re 32 they’re the only ones who’ve gone through suffering of old age? Pssht.
18. Even though you’re beginning to experience all the rubbish parts of getting older
My hip hurts, I’m always tired, and I have lost the youthful sheen of my skin and the hope in my eyes. Don’t cry for me.
19. You’re still expected to enjoy doing ‘young people’ things
Like clubbing, or pogo sticks, or sex stuff. But you’re tired. So tired.
20. And hangovers are suddenly a very real thing
Why did no one warn us? Why must we be so alone in our suffering?
21. You are the actual embodiment of not a girl, not yet a woman
Regardless of gender. It’s a lack of belonging thing. Britney gets it.
22. Everyone accomplishing big, impressive things is at least two years younger than you
Just remember that Malala Yousafzai is only 18 the next time you’re in bed at 2pm eating your second packet of dry, slightly stale crackers.
Remember that Taylor Swift was 16 when she released her first album when you’re calling your parents and asking if they can lend you a few hundred pounds so you can go to that festival AND pay rent.
Remember this. Sob.
23. You really imagined you’d have everything figured out by now
When you were young, you imagined your 23-year-old self as a cool, well-dressed person living in their own apartment with a dog and a dream job.
Now you realise that your dreams are slowly dying. And so are you.
http://metro.co.uk/2016/02/24/23-deeply-unbearable-struggles-of-being-23-5715827/
盼望的緣份
As Time Goes By
*As Times Goes By X
Grammar mistake ^__^”
A new mixtape? 😱 A provisional design? 🙈 I thought you’ve stopped making music? 👈 Well, once you have a passion for something, it’s hard to ignore and be bleak about it 🔥 Could entail 6 hip-hop songs but it’s early days, already got a lot in my mind.
- Expectations
- Dear May
- Your smile
- Winter breeze
- As Time Goes By
- Last Train Home
My 5th mixtape could potentially surface, but it’ll depend on my current situation. Work has been developing, and will get more busy…I can feel it. I did technically make my 2nd mixtape “Game Over” during my placement year in 2014, so why not now? Let’s see how the next couple of months will pan out for me, it could change. I mean, I could require more knowledge and change the perspective of this upcoming project.
I’ve decided the theme of this song will be purely hip-hop, and that means no mainstream bullshit or instrumentals with hooks. As I’ve said previously, I was never 100% satisfied with “Reflections Of My Life“, therefore this could be the one? What you see above is a draft design of the mixtape, and there might be a possibility I might change it and even add more tracks on, but let’s not get too happy at the moment…
夜夜夜夜
Failure
Most of the times I have a very positive outlook in everything, but there are days when it rains, and you feel like a failure. We get these days, and but do I deal with them? Watch something funny, and take my mind off things. But right now, I can’t seem to shake it off…
To be honest, when you pass the phase of university, the real world can be daunting. Over time, you’ll contact with friends at university, and it sucks. At least I’ve enjoyed my time there for sure, but it’s ashame that time wasn’t with me. In reality, where we want to get to is challenging.
Work is challenging, and although I’ve been working there for less than a month, it hasn’t completely clicked yet, and having to adapt to the new environment. Life goes on. There are a few things I still haven’t managed to do and it’s depressing. I’m almost 23 years of age, and that number will keep rolling forward each passing year, so I need to start making use of my life.
Yes, it is depressing knowing that I’m not where I want to be. Shouldn’t it motivate you? At this very moment…no…because a lot is on my mind, and work itself hasn’t helped too. I’m making it sound bad, but actually it’s okay, but before I got this job and had certain “criterias”. But unfortunately, some were not met, and it’s pulling me down.
Besides work, love is another. I still haven’t met the right person and each passing year doesn’t help either. I just wish…wish I meet you. As I’ve said many times, I will not force love at all because the outcome is costly! If I have to stay single, so let it be. I need to move beyond my horizons and see the bigger picture in life, and in the process I pray I meet someone.
一對寂寞的心
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