Monthly Archives: March 2018
As Time Goes By [Start of 2018]
Carrying on from the End of 2017 there has more progress and determination. Although I’m retrospectively writing this, I hope I can look back and say hell yeah.. but yo let’s go!
January 2018:
Welcome to 2018 and the vibe has been getting stronger. Focused on writing my main song “As Time Goes By” and it’s hella dope! What always get me is the chorus, which today I am sharing with you all. The whole month I guess had been busy but always progressing on steadily.
The world around me changes
It’s amazing how time flies, turning the pages
How I made it so painless
Seeking for greatness, this picture I painted
As I go on, the oldest colours have faded
Friends becoming strangers
And yet strangers become so well acquainted
All those precious hours I’ve wasted
The love that I’ve tasted
Now I kickback and tell myself I’ve made it
February 2018:
Next song on the list is “93 ‘Til Infinity” and for me this was one of my greatest challenge. Besides writing grime lyrics to “Final Lap” dating back to 2015, this was like raising the bar to the next two levels. I rarely make records that just raps throughout without a chorus or some break, but yeah it’s gonna be a good 2 minutes of pure rapping so the lyrics need to be on point. I think I must have been halfway through the record writing the lyrics, but I had a call up for my rapping talent for my Buddhist activities and this was for the SGI Generation Hope in Manchester on March 17th 2018. It would be a potential big event with over 800 people in the audience. So I accepted this and focused my attention on that. My role was to write lyrics and perform this on stage, so it was definitely a good experience and challenge.
March 2018:
The first good two weeks has been focusing on this live peformance, and the time to refine my lyrics and perform with emotion has been quite exhausting to be honest, but worth it! Also within this period I’ve managed to secure a new job so happy days 🙂 Back to the topic, after the event was a success back to the usual vibes…and with that determination and experience I took back with me, I was blazing through my lyrics. 93 ‘Til Infinity was completed at the end of the third week, and realising the lyrics I’ve written for the performance was also adaptable for this project. I was like, I can’t leave these bars for waste, it’s got potential. So I’m using these now 🙂
I believe on 27th March 2018…that night I was rolling in my bed tryna sleep…because I had a crazy idea haha. I got sucked into releasing a sixth project and the feeling was too strong! At the end of all of this, I’ve managed to conclude to add 2 more songs into my current project and although I’ve stressed hundred of times to not to extend it, I rather not work towards a sixth project. The feeling was too strong!!! So basically the final week of March has been killing it, and I mean not messing around and finding excuses, but writing and planning my lyrics in the “booth” at work. I have crazy ideas that I can’t ignore man for real! By tomorrow I should have finished writing lyrics for the next song Conflicted so life is good!! Just the chorus where I’ll need to think what to add on. So overall, I only have two songs left to write lyrics to, so believe it or not I’m almost there. I have a good feeling with this project 🙂
April 2018:
As I’ve previously mentioned that I had included two additional songs, which one of them had been completed in the last week of March, and the second one completed as of today! This one is entitled as “Last August” which I adapted the idea from my previous song “Last September” but putting a twist to it. Sticking to a Kanye West College Dropout theme so don’t worry about that. I now have 6 days left till I start my new job next week, and I have one song left. That means real business!! “Surviving Hard Times” which will be the finale of my 5th project. A similar beat to Nas’s song and already have a few ideas bubbling in my mind, so fingers crossed I can complete this before I start my new job. I feel my new job will be stressful, so finishing all my lyrics is a priortiy for me. Following up bank holiday, today is Tuesday and got home, fixed the issue with my car, and started cooking up the beat for my song “Low Deep“. All done and it’s just pass midnight, so time to snooze off soon.
All my lyrics have been fully written from the week commencing 16/04/18, however I had to learn from my past mistakes, and that’s revisiting all my lyrics and refine any parts that are necessary, oh yeah and practice beforehand too! So, the fourth week of April will sitting down and refining the lyrics and ensure everything sounds perfect.
Your Ultimate Guide For Becoming The Best in The World at What You Do
Ambition (alone) won’t guarantee your success — but these habits will.
In our early childhood, we were always asked what we wanted to become when we grew up. We were filled with hopes and dreams. Unfortunately, not all people realize their life goals. Often, it’s not because of external factors, but its because they limit themselves.
So, is being an ambitious person a negative thing?
No, being ambitious is not a negative trait. It is in fact a good start you if are aiming to improve the quality of your life. But it is wrong in so many levels if you are ambitious but also indecisive, half-hearted, and passive; using your weaknesses as an excuse for not doing what is required of you to become successful. For instance, a newbie entrepreneur with bold ambitions lets their inner-self doubt get in the way of learning new skills that are essential to success.
Do not sabotage your way to success by making up excuses not to go above and beyond what is expected of you. Having this kind of mindset, and being unwilling to grow by learning and sacrifice, is counterproductive to all other efforts you are putting into chasing your ambitions.
Ask yourself, what will you ever achieve if you are always afraid to cross the borders of your comfort zone?
One more thing that can detract from being ambitious is simply having a negative mind. I always give emphasis on the fact that success starts in your mind. You already have that big ambition and if you believe in it, then you have to believe yourself. Once you let fear and negativity consume you, you also let opportunities walk out your door.
Instead, stay positive amidst struggles and adversities by having confidence in your strengths. Use these strengths to your advantage and do not let emotions interfere in your critical decision making.
Worried about failure? We are all terrified to make mistakes. We don’t want setbacks. We want to be perfect but we are not, hence we are bound to fail in life at one point. These things are inevitable but they happen to you because they will teach you a thing or two about what you need to work on the moment you bounce back, so just keep bouncing back.
Then, what does it really take for me to become successful? Try pairing these habits with your ambitions to make the leap you’ve always desired:
Be Fully Committed to Long Term Goals.
As the saying goes, “Go big or go home.”
If you cannot put your 100% commitment into your long term goals, then it’s safe to say that you will never achieve them. Once you have your plans set, you have to be flexible, but always go back to why you are doing this and for what reward. Because you will encounter a lot of temptations forcing you to change your mind or back-out halfway through, but if you are sure of where you are headed to, then your commitment to your goals will not falter.
“Everyone starts strong. Success comes to those with unwavering commitment to be at the end.” — Howard Shultz, CEO of Starbucks
Be Receptive of Change.
“If you change the way you see the world, you change the world that see you.” — Satya Nadella, CEO of Microsoft
Being open to change is a remarkable quality that will boost your morale and lead you to greater heights. There is also a saying that the only thing constant in this world is change. So you have to understand that you cannot control everything. Don’t even try to change the circumstances because you will only disappoint yourself. Instead, rise above unexpected turn of events but adjusting your attitude towards it, trying to be more positive, and shifting your perspective to more important things that you could deal with rather than dwelling on what you cannot fix.
One slice at a time.
“Be patient with yourself. Self-growth is tender, it’s holy ground. There’s no greater investment” — Stephen Covey
Don’t try to learn everything at once. Instead, you should work at mastering one skill at a time to eventually get you to the bigger picture (and dang, will that whole thing be worth it).
Take your new venture on in segments — what do you need to learn first in able to move forward? Do you know how to read music to play that guitar you just bought? Have you learned how to stretch properly for the marathon you just signed up for? Keep doing this along the way and you will have a much more successful end result than if you try to take it all on at once.
Invest in a coach.
As children, we had a coach for everything — after school we stayed for swim lessons, on Saturdays we went to dance class, Mondays was soccer practice and Wednesday our violin teacher came to the house for private lessons. As adults we tend to try to do things on our own, which K. Anders Ericsson, the mind behind this school of thought, disagrees with.
If you are trying to become an expert at something the first thing you should do is find someone to learn from. A teacher can provide feedback and critique you in ways that you will not be able to do on your own. Having a coach will steer you in the right direction in regard to setting goals and expectations and will also help you know what to look for when you are eventually ready to train on your own.
Fail. A lot.
“Failure taught me things about myself that I could have learned no other way,” said J.K. Rowling.
In J.K. Rowling’s Harvard Commencement speech, she attributes deliberate practice to much of her success. From her choice of a Classics Degree to constantly pushing the envelope in her Harry Potter Books, “the fringe benefits of failure” are what took her to where she is today.
And outside the world of wizards and magic wands, the NY Times found that,“The best ice skaters spend more of their practice time trying jumps that they land less often, while lesser skaters work more on jumps they’ve already mastered.”
By redefining failure as something that makes you great, you can start deliberately practicing your task — honing in on tiny areas of failure instead of repeating the parts you’ve already mastered.
The Bottom-line
My point here is simple, ambitions are like binoculars, it enables you to see what you want to become and where you want to go. You can imagine it clearly but you need something to take you there. That’s where persistence, hard work, and sacrifice enter the picture. You don’t just achieve success in this world, you work for it regardless of what it takes. And don’t give up!
“If something is important enough, even if the odds are against you, you should still do it.” — Elon Musk, Founder and CEO of SpaceX
Dragon Ball Super
05/07/15 – 25/03/18. Gosh…final episode, what a journey it’s been, thank you Akira Toriyama!
My Song today
I’ve had this song in my head all day. Almost forgot about this song, classic. I’ll be lying if I said I wasn’t thinking about her, only that one girl…
A Sudden Change!?
It must have been just before 5pm today at work to receive a text from her…and this time it was in block capitals. I was like this is strange, it’s either a good or a bad thing, but mostly talking to her, there would be a higher possibility it’s a good thing 🙂 It just caught me off guard and my tired expression lit up after reading her next message! It turned into a silly grin but also trying to hold my joy inside. Well, to expect something that small but positive really changed my mood, and sometimes I guess her happiness means more than myself…
I didn’t expect it. Now I’m sat here just really asking myself, is this too good to be true? I mean, come on…really I always believe things happen for a reason, but is this that reason?! You know…I could ask her that one question which can literally flip it the other around and change things completely, but I’m scared of the outcome, and just scared of losing her. Maybe I’m over thinking this, but today is her day and I’m really happy for her, don’t want to kill her vibes 🙂 I’m out!
Fulfilment…
When you get to the point when you’ve secured the right job to progress in your career, but you feel you’re missing something else in your life…that fulfilment.
Admittingly enough, what has already been next on my list is my love life, but at times I’ve been stubbornly ignoring it ,and focus on other things. And even actually limiting my own potential by focusing on that one girl, who I know that I can’t have. There are other individuals who I’ve grown an admiration for, but blindly ignoring them just cause my heart is fixed onto that one girl. I once actually expressed my feelings towards her but that was like 5 years ago, what’s changed? 😔
Life is like that…sometimes the things you really want aren’t meant to be and you just can’t force it. Guess we were really meant to be…just good friends and nothing more 🙏
I’m gonna try divert my attention elsewhere and build upon my character and focus on my career and my upcoming music mixtape. Let’s go 💪🔥
Holding back my love life
Adding on top of Conflicted, there are actually three girls in my life but there is only one who I wish to build something more with. But the conflict has been killing me inside.
Previously, when I was at university I met a girl who had my family’s heritage/descent but unfortunately I wasn’t able to build upon it. Moving on swiftly, there was another girl who had similar personalities I best believe so I assumed we would mix well, but the final sting was too much for her and I was so wrong.
Now, I’m in a position where I am confused and frustrated with myself because I don’t know what do. Without explaining into each girl, all you need to know is firstly, one girl I’ve fallen into unacquainted love and have known for ages, second is I’ve known her for a while but trying to build something there, and lastly this girl I’ve know only over a month, and I can sense a small spark starting.
I’m not saying that my family or close friends have been pressuring me to find somebody…well kinda haha…but I’m not gonna find love just because I’m bored or lonely or whatever, I will find love when I’m ready to give. I will pour out my heart for the right girl and treat her like the queen she deserves to be.
Decisions decisions decisions! Deep down I am clinging onto the unacquainted love as stupid as it sounds, and it’s been so difficult and shall I let go? It’s like working so hard for something which goes back over 6 years and just leaving…it’s difficult 😦 There is a possibility for something even better and if I don’t let that girl know, it’ll be too late…
Let Me Blow Ya Mind
GENERATION HOPE
An amazing day!!
tsangwinglun 