花月佳期

Buddhist Meeting: Saturday 4th July

Having a Buddhist activity meeting on that day was something I really was deciding on. I was actually planning to record that one song that I mentioned previously…the one I can’t stop thinking about her. Well I finished late evening time and I was hungry and the whole day has drained me. So wouldn’t be worth it to rush the song and get frustrated with the outcome. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for recording.

Anyways what I learnt today has been memorising and that’s because it was something I could relate to and that’s the near future. I wrote a post about the near future and how much I would like to be with her. Well there are things I now know that no matter how hard you try, you can’t get. What I mean obviously is the more I think about it, the more it seems real…real that I won’t be able to have her. I even had this one thought in my mind that we will part our ways eventually regardless in a year time because our ambitions are different I suppose. I want to build my academic foundation in the UK and ensure I have a viable future ahead of me, and not worry about what job issues. Knowledge is power. I know she won’t wait for me because building this foundation will take at least three years and she doesn’t have that time for me. If she really has feelings for me she would stay but…who knows in three years time when I see her again she probably has a wedding ring on her finger 😅

Going to that meeting today has inspired me to not give up on my day-to-day life. Listening to people’s struggle and how they overcame it. I can tell they’ve suffered for a period of time and I’ve been complaining about my love life and that’s a big difference. I think I’ve finally realise the meaning of “best things happen when you least expect it” 🙂